20 August, 2012

EPIPHANY NO. ___
IF I HAD BEEN THE ONE WHO HAD DIED, THE UNIVERSE WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER.
SO WHY WASN'T I THE ONE WHO HAD A HOLE IN THE HEART? WHY WASN'T I BORN FIRST AND HAD IT INSTEAD? WHY WASN'T I THE ONE THE DOCTORS DIDN'T CARE ABOUT -- WHY WEREN'T THY NII-SAN CARED FOR? IT'S ALL MOI DAMN FAULT!
2PID MOI HAD TO APPEAR AT THE WRONG TIME. 2PID MOI HAD TO EXIST. 2PID MOI HAD TO MAKE SO MANY PPL SUFFER. 2PID, PATHETIC, PIECE OF MUCK HAD TO EXIST INSTEAD OF THY NII-SAN. 2PID MOI HAD TO TAKE AWAY THE ATTENTION AND CARE GIVEN TO THY NII-SAN. 2PID MOI TOOK THY NII-SAN'S LIFE !!!
I SHOULDN'T HAVE APPEARED. I SHOULDN'T HAVE CAME INTO EXISTENCE.
I SUCK TTM.
STUPID GOD IF THERE IS ONE. GOD ALMIGHTY CREATED ME FOR WUD?! TOOK AWAY AN INNOCENT LIFE. (iknowyoudon'twantseemyfacesocreatemeforwud?!) TAKE AWAY MINE AND TOOS ME INTO SOMEWHERE DARK AND HIDDEN (i.e blackhole) AND FORGET ABOUT ME IS WHAT YOU CAN DO. THEN REPLACE WITH THY NII-SAN. EASY AS PIE.
IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO DO IT NOW. DO IT FOR THIS SHETASS WORLD. I GUARANTEE YOU EVERYONE, EVERYTHING SUPER MEGA GIGA TETRA HAPPY. LIKE, (don'ttakeitliterally) THE HELL???!!! THIS IS SO NOT FUN.
so what should i do now? end my existence? but i can't. fear. i fear what awaits me if i do. will i end up in hell? or face reincarnation? or just float around in a dark fluid (see soul eater)? ... ...

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